Soul Shifting >> The Uncomfortable Side of Growing in Your Faith
Do you feel like you are in a transitional season? Maybe it doesn't look to transitional on the outside. No major changes, no big moves, no different, however everything feels different.
It's a soul shifting>>
A deep stirring were your conscious state and subconscious are no longer in alignment, when reality become unfamiliar and the idea of contentment feels lightyears away.
I am HERE today, soul shifting, in the midst of my normal routine. God is laying heaving bricks of truth in my heart, not to make a wall though, more of path for me to follow. However, it is not in the direction my flesh desires to go.
No major changes. No big moves. Nothing different.
Shifting forward>>
My soul has been hungry for answers and desperate for reasoning. I have been more in The Word than usual lately DIGGING for some semblance of an answer. Crying out for explanation and miracle, yet left with empty hands and a heavy heart.
I believe it is the heaviness I have felt, that brought on the first shift in my soul. Like a cannon ball being tossed into a pond, the heaviness provoked movement and the waves were layers expectation being shifted within me.
The deliverance from my circumstance didn’t come in the form I had prayed, but God heard and responded in an equally important and profound way. He stirred up things in my heart that had laid dormant under my own desires and expectations of my future. He excavated truths I had long since buried under what the world had told me to believe.
“Like a potter with a mound of clay, it takes pressure, movement, heat, and time to create a masterpiece, so The Lord will also take His time with you. ”
So as you feel caught between your head and heart, uncomfortable as you grow in this season, do not run back to the worldly desires in search for answer or quick fix to your uneasy state.
Stand firm. Sit still in the storm. Be molded by The Potter and lean into this season as your faith transforms your heart. We must grow comfortable with the stirring in our spirit, as we will never achieve perfection, only to slowly be formed through sanctification.
For me molding and refining often looks relationships coming and going, doors shutting, and windows swinging open. It is a strange feeling between nothing and everything changing at the same time. A feeling I now know as faith growing pains like leg aches as a small child, symbolizing growth with side effects of discomfort.
If you find your soul shifting, think of it as progress, moving you closer to all that is good. I will leave you with this short passage, one of J’s favorites, so much so that is commemorated on his body.
“12 Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. 13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
My your Christmas be merry, and your holiday’s blessed.
oxox,
Kendall Mariah